it's official, humans cause me great concern and sadness. i tend to think them "stupid." now, i am not sure if all humans are stupid because i have not met all humans yet, but the ones i seem to be meeting lately are pretty stupid [and i am deeply saddened by their actions and remarks. now, not "stupid" in the "i can't add 2 plus 2" stupid, but in the "i will tell you one thing and do another thing" stupid. in my dealings with certain humans over the past few months i am not sure how humans can deal with each other at all. humans, in general, lie, cheat and steal and for what ever reason they think this is a good thing; and the part that gets me the most is some claim to be doing it for God, and because of that it's okay.
over the past few months i have had the unfortunate task of dealing with humans who claim to be "higher on the evolutionary scale," and yet i wonder. these humans are called "denominational leaders" from the "sbc" and they seem to have no grasp of reality,and they are very smooth. in fact, after having a conversation with one i felt i needed a flea dip. granted, i know i am a monkey, and like all good monkeys a bit of poo is always involved - but more so then the poo, i believe i am a pretty honest and direct. i'm not perfect, and i know my aim is not that great. still, when one is dealing with people who claim to be "denominational leaders" one does have an expectation of honesty and integrity. i know, i know, i should never place that kind of burden on a human, they always find a way around the realities of life.
i feel sorry for those humans, those trapped in the bondage of denominational bureaucracy . you see, they think they are "right" and yet they have no idea what that means. they are quick to tell you one thing, while meaning something very different; they are quick to say they support you, while at the same time sharpening the knife that will be planted in your back. for them, power is defined in terms of money, and when they get to the point of being "in charge" they wheeled that power around, and hold it over the heads of others. i am saddened by the hearts of those who claim to be "denominational leaders" because in them i see nothing i desire to be, or become. who they are turns me away from where they are and moves me in a very different direction. if i see in them anything, i see in them what i desire not to be in my walk of faith.
i pray i hold humans higher then "profit"
i pray i can see past the lies, and walk in the light
i pray i can be a better monkey, then they can a human
i pray i see community, and am blind to "church"
i pray i see Christ, and i turn from the teachings of man
i pray i know faith, and leave behind frustration
i pray i hold grace, and not hear the cries for "revenge"
when i became a follower of christ, i did something very silly - i read the bible and i expected people who claimed to be leaders to follow it all the way. not just the parts they like. as a monkey, i strive to not be human - because if being human means i have to treat people the way many religious leaders treat people - i want nothing to do with it - and i am glad evolution is in flux.